deep thoughts.

{ via }
For as long as I can remember, I've been a person of if onlys. I would put a huge focus on what I didn't have and I'd get it in my head that "if only I had/did/was x", then my life would be complete.

"X" could be anything: losing ten pounds, getting engaged, finding a new job... even when I seemingly had it all, I still found myself with a nagging feeling of discontent. There was always something else that could be better...a missing piece that would make my happiness puzzle complete.

The past couple of years have been a bit of a roller coaster of emotion (to say the least). They've been filled with highs and lows, but in my old age I've come to a sort of revelation: there will always be something I want to change, and that's perfectly fine. But I need to spend a lot less time focusing on the have nots and put a much higher value on the haves.

And slowly but surely, I think I'm getting there.


  1. Seeing "change" as "growth" was a huge lightbulb moment for me. You're always going to want to grow -- nobody wants to stagnate! -- and that comes with change. I'm loving this new SO CHOICE project you're on, keep this stuff coming! xx

  2. This is very timely for me. I have been thinking about the same thing. Like, why can't I be happy with the now? I am always waiting for something else or as you say the "missing piece."

  3. So important to remind ourselves of this and realize how damn lucky we are.